Late Night Thoughts
Or is it early morning? I mean.. Is 5AM still considered nighttime? I don’t know. Anyway.
Summer’s almost ended [school starts on Monday for me], and I feel like this summer’s been… well very uneventful. I haven’t done much this summer besides work work work. My iCal’s been filled almost every single day with work hours [and the occasional lunch date], and well it’s been pretty hectic. In a good way I suppose because all that work means I have money to spend on… the rest of my life, right? Right. Kind of.
Anyway, I’ve been gymming it [kinda] too this past month, and it’s felt really good. I love kickboxing because I feel like I’m learning a new skill along with getting my butt kicked. Seriously, I’ve never had my hands shake from exhaustion after a workout before. It’s definitely been a fun experience. I’m glad that I’ve cut my hours at Clubsport [compared to the last few summers anyway] because it makes my time there a lot more enjoyable. I actually really liked coming in to teach my lessons once a week [and to coach twice more in addition to that]. Hah. Last summer [and the summer before that], going to Clubsport was such a pain, but not anymore. I guess scarcity really does work.
I wish I’d been able to make more time for people, though. I always got sad when I thought about how I tried to make an effort to keep in touch with people&such because nobody else did, but sometimes I feel like I’m one of those people who can’t make an effort… I feel like I’ve slid into a complacent state of being, but I’m trying to remedy that as well as I can.
I’ve also been hanging out with some of my oldest friends this summer. It’s been so great… it really reminds me that in the end, it’s not the number of friends you have, but the quality of your friends that matters. Even though we’re all so busy, we try to make time for each other. Kinda.
Sometimes I wish I could just rewind life to… just kidding. That’d be a bad idea. There were so many unpleasant things that happened from 7th-12th grade, but I think sometimes when I look back on life, I think I had it so much easier.. And then sometimes when I look back, I feel like life was just horrid back then. I guess it just depends on the lens you look at it with.
Anyway, I have no idea what the point of this post is, but it’s 5:30 AM and I should probably try to get at least an hour and a half of sleep. We’ll see how that goes.
