There are only 2 more weeks left of my last summer… ever. This is the first time I’ve ever been excited for Fall to start… my last quarter of school to start.
It’s bizarre to think that after 18 years of education [I did 2 years of preschool], my very Last First Day of school is in two weeks. And then I’ll have 10 weeks of classes, 1 week of finals, and then be DONE. I’ve been waiting for this day forEVER, but now that it’s coming up, I’m starting to get really scared.
I’ve been in the working world since I was 14, but got my first “big girl” internship this summer, so I’ve been spending 4 days a week in a cubicle. I used to hate cubicle life, but I actually kind of like it now. I get a lot of time to myself, which is really nice. I never thought I would… Don’t get me wrong; I still miss working in a swim suit & without shoes on, but dressing professionally & such is actually pretty nice. I feel like an adult [kind of].
I’ve been submitting applications for real jobs, and it freaks me out a little. I don’t know if I’m ready for the real world, but I guess I don’t really have a choice. I’ve been wanting to grow up for so long, but now that I’ll be a “real grown-up” in just 13 weeks. I’m trying to move out soon, so that means paying my own rent, my own gas, my own phone bill [maybe?]. I mean I’ve been paying for the majority of my expenses myself since I was 14, but still…
People keep asking me what I want to do when I graduate, and I always thought I had it all figured out, but these past 6 months have made me realize that I don’t really have anything figured out. I always thought I wanted to work with kids, but I don’t think I do anymore. I’ve been getting more and more immersed in the communications & social media & marketing world, and I’ve found that I really like it. The more I’m allowed to write, the more it reminds me that writing was my first real love. Well besides music, I guess, but I know I won’t be able to pursue a career in music. I also really like helping people plan things & manage their lives, so I’ve applied to a few assistant positions… Hoping to get those. But I don’t know if I want those just because I think I’d be good at it & it wouldn’t be too hard for me to do, or because I really, truly want to do it.
I feel like I’m standing at the cross section of a few roads, and I have no idea which direction I’ll be following. I guess all I can do is keep submitting applications & praying that I stumble upon my true vocation sometime within these next 13 weeks..
Crazy to think that I could potentially be deciding how my whole career path turns out within these next 13 weeks. Anyway, I haven’t written a personal post in forever, but I guess that’s just what’s been goin’ on in my head. Kind of jumbled, but I’ll probably write a cleaned up version later. And maybe post it on my writing blog. We’ll see.
What a quarter. It’s [finally] half over, and so much has happened, yet there’s still so much more to do. That’s the beauty of the quarter system, I guess. I knew what I was signing up for when I registered for 3 upper-division psychology classes [two of them in the hardest fields, in my opinion… psychopharmacology&cognitive psychology are no jokes], but I definitely didn’t think I’d be working as much as I am now. In the last two weeks, I acquired two new jobs [in addition to the 3 I already work], and it’s been an adventure for sure. I haven’t started my 5th job yet [first day is on Tuesday!], but I know that this will definitely test my time management. I guess hour-wise it’s not going to be as bad as I thought; less than 30 hours a week of work [and not all of it on-location] plus school isn’t horrible.
Oh, and I’ve started working out again. Thank goodness for having best friends who’ll get up early to run with me. Oh, and cheers for discovering more ways to work out. Zumba is super fun! And I look forward to starting yoga in the next two weeks, so hopefully in addition to the two[ish] days of running/cardio a week + a day of strength&conditioning, I’ll be doing yoga once or twice a week. It feels really good to get back on the workout grind; my boss/ex-coach made fun of me, saying, “If I had seen you this often when you were in high school, you might have actually been fast.” So sad, yet so true. I feel like college life is so much more flexible than high school life, though. I sleep early so I can wake up early-ish [well okay, 8… it’s later than I woke up for high school, but earlier than most college kids wake up] and get a workout in before work/school kick in. Didn’t have that as an option in high school.
Anyway, I’m learning a lot about academics, worklife, and well, myself this quarter. This may not be the way most normal students choose to go through college, but then again, whoever said I was normal? Two and a half quarters left at SCU… Love it, but can’t wait to be done&out to the real world. Kind of. Time to go to bed so I can wake up early&study&then work. Cheers to the freakin weekend. Seriously.